Thursday Dec. 21
False Alarm
What was supposed to be a routine pre-natal visit to the obstetrician turned into a six-hour hospital odyssey. We visited with the OBGYN’s partner in the event our doctor wasn’t available fort he delivery. That doctor noted that my wife’s bloodpressure was high at 140 that particular day. She told us that if the reading doesn’t go down by the time we finish with the appointment, she’ll send her to labor and delivery at our designated hospital. If the doctor there runs tests and finds she has preeclampsia, labor would be induced and we’d become parents within 24 hours. Well, that, I’m sure, just pumped up her blood pressure even more, since my wife wasn’t mentally ready to be admitted to a hospital just yet. Premature parenthood, I guess, as opposed to a premature baby. After all, we have three more weeks to go before the delivery date of January 12. The baby himself could exit the womb any time since he’s already weighing at 5 pounds, 14 ounces. A second reading showed her blood pressure at 140. Off we were to the hospital, just two blocks away.
I called my office to tell the troops I wouldn’t be returning for the rest of the day. My wife and I wound up waiting more than an hour in triage, which is the waiting room for labor and delivery. As we were waiting, my wife worried about two things: how we’d miss the opera on the 31st if she were to deliver; and how her office laptop was left on and that she hadn’t packed it to take home. I told her not to worry. Hey, if she delivers, at least she’d be able to take full advantage of her maternity leave, which was to start next Monday, I told her. As for the PC, I could pick that up later.
After a series of blood tests, blood pressure monitoring, a sonogram, and a urine test for protein, she was cleared. The blood pressure rose to as high as 139 but subsided. She was relieved. By then, it was already 8 pm.
I learned several things: be prepared. Yes, we had prepared a bag to take to the hospital when her labor begins. But there were still items not checked off on the must-buy checklist. And in a pressure-filled situation, it’s up to the husband to try to provide an ocean of calm in a caldron. I imagine I’ll be called upon a lot more once we get into labor. And my wife had been testy about a comment I’d made a day or two before which I thought was completely innocuous. Any of that anger directed at me dissipated and disappeared in her moment of crisis. I had unscrewed her pressure valve and had given her a shoulder to lean on.
Tuesday, Dec. 19
I got an email from my wife. She complained about my statement last night. She said that I was trying to act like a saint and care about the world when she was concerned about her personal pain.
Monday, Dec. 18
My wife and I went to the hospital to watch three films about labor, Caesarean sections and epidurals. Epidurals are given to ease the pain in labor. Caesareans, commonly known as C-sections, are the surgeries given to deliver a baby when natural childbirth is no longer medically an option. These are not pleasant topics, especially for me, since I’m squeamish about blood.
My wife is learning toward getting an epidural. That goes against almost everything our liberal earth-momma dula from Brooklyn taught us in Lamaze class. A dula, by the way, is a midwife. Lamaze instructors teach breathing techniques, among many other things, to promote natural childbirth. Epidurals, while removing pain, extends the time spent on labor. But my wife abhors the thought of pain.
Against that backdrop, we saw the films. On the taxi ride home, she asked me something that had begun to bother me. From time to time, she would complain about why women have to go through all the pain. The men, she says, only experience the pleasure of sex without the responsibility and pain of carrying a child. When she mentioned this again this night, I told her, “Only God knows why.” I then went on to paint a broader picture. Being an anchor of international news, I see footage of conflict on a daily basis: the sectarian violence in Iraq, the budding war between Ethiopia and Somali Islamists, the strife in Lebanon internally and with the Israelis. I’ve asked myself throughout the years: “Why didn’t God create a world without pain and suffering? Why not just create a world where everyone is good? True, it may be boring, but then, make it so that it’s not boring yet everyone is good and no harm is every done.” That’s what I told her. She didn’t like that response. When she made another point about her pain, I said that God could take care of that as well as the rest of the world’s suffering by making a world without pain. That got her really upset.